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An Experiment? [Feb. 20th, 2005|08:02 pm]
Jiang Chi
Jules words from the other day still strike me, you know? Im wondering... is it REALLY possible to bring both of my sides together? I mean I know that there would only be two other alternatives... either one side would dominate and Id loose a part of myself or Id simply go insane. Neither of which sound very promising!

So that leaves one question... how? Ive decided that first, I have to prove to myself that I need both sides just as much, so I dont try to slip down the easiest road. A few days, one day, for a bit of time I will use my usual side. Then for an equal amount of time, Ill use the other. I know it might freak out some people... but its something I need to do. Something I need to prove to myself so I can find the halfway point.

I know I can do this! *Nods to self* Then afterwards, maybe Ill find some answers. Maybe Ill even be better than ever, who knows? A journey of a thousand miles.. well you know! So... Im going to try this. Yep, really am no matter what. Whats the worst that could happen?

----Jia
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Rude Books! [Feb. 20th, 2005|07:51 pm]
Jiang Chi
You know, its funny how I just keep running into people! I was heading off to get some coffee before training when I literally tripped on a book! The commotion caused someone to come out, a man I found out was named Rude.

Rude was really nice, but he couldnt stay long and had to go find Reno! Wow, I kinda feel sorry for him! But it was nice meeting a new face like that and I hope to run into him again!

----Jia

PS: In case you're wondering, the book was ahem... a little... er... risky. O_o I wonder if maybe it belonged to Reno? I cant imagine it was Rude's anyways...
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That was interesting! [Feb. 17th, 2005|01:12 am]
Jiang Chi
Well this morning, before being called in on another mission and after meeting Elena, I found myself finally in the training room. Been meaning to go there all week! Anyways, who should be there but Jules! I watched him for a moment with his knives, hes really good at those! Then he spotted me and we decided to help each other. I helped a bit with his shooting, and though I know it may take some time I think I can help him get onto par! *Smiles*

Elena found us too, and I showed her a bit before she had to go. You know... I think I may just have to drop her off a gun as well. *Smiles* I mean everyone should have at least one though I dont know how much they'll appreciate the gifts. But its the thought that counts right? Ill get right on that soon!

Then Jules took me over to the short range weaponry. We tried a gladius at first... and it went flying as I feared. But afterwards he tried the claws... and you know what? I think... I think it just might work! *Smiles* I never thought... well, geez I didnt think that memory would still linger like this.

I was trained right out of the oprhanage, because back then all I knew was how to wield materia and of course that just wouldnt do. So my instructor was quick to start me off with a set of throwing stars. "You've got wutaian blood in you, you'll do fine!" he told me, as though blood made the person. Oh those stars flew all right... when they werent supposed to. "What kind of Wutaian are you?" the instructor demanded of me. "Werent you born in-" I replied simply. "Im not, Im a Midgar resident same as you Sir." THAT quieted him... though I have never been able to forget that reaction. Daggers, Knives, swords, all would go flying. Many an injured attendant later, they still hadnt found me a weapon that wouldnt go flying. Finally, someone came in to use the shooting range.

And like that my fate was decided. From a very young age, I was trained to shoot. Deciding it much safer, I was never trained in anything else, nor allowed to at the time. All I had were my guns to train with and thus... well thats how I became good at them. I sacrificed any kind of close range weapons in exchange for shooting skills.

Im going to practice though with the claws. If anything... I want to do this. I want to be good at this, and the only way I will be is with practice. But you know waht? Jules said Elena would make a great sparring partner... Ill have to ask her later! *Smiles*

Welll anyways, its getting late now and I must be off to bed. Who knows when taht PHS'll go off again...

----Jia
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A new face :) [Feb. 15th, 2005|05:59 pm]
Jiang Chi
I met a new person today! Well I really shouldnt say new per se, because I had seen her around here a lot. But I got to know her better, and we even had coffee together in the lounge. *Smiles* Noone but my friend Jules has ever asked me to have coffee or anything like that before!

So we sat and talked over coffee, me figuring being a few momoments later than I had wanted to for target practice was WELL worth it! It was a nice conversation actually... well all but one part but it was an honest mstake on her part. I can always type that up later. But for now, I just want to talk about how really wonderful it was to just have a person want to talk like that. Afterwards, we exchanged numbers and she offered to take me over to her place to watch movies sometime!

I think Elena and I could be very good friends, well I hope so anyways! But first I have to get some time off so I CAN go watch a movie! *Laughs* For now, its back off to work, lunch break is over!

----Jia
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Meeting with friends again and masks [Feb. 15th, 2005|12:18 pm]
Jiang Chi
And here I am sitting at this forsaken machine again. *Sighs* I dont know why I always feel the need to type in this, I always just end up contemplating things in the end. But I guess that makes sense in a way considering thats what I do when Im not talking to people anyways.

Jules made it back to Midgar today! It was great to see him around again, and I offered to help him unpack. Which I did, and we ended up afterwards settling down to a new type of tea Id never had before: oolong tea. It was great stuff though the color of it was a little less than to be desired... Anyways moving on!

Its amazing the things Jules and I always talk about. Today we ranged from pranks that can be pulled (really, if I ever get some time off I am so pulling one just to see the pranked persons face!) to well... more serious issues. He asked me about my... duality.

You know, I honestly thought noone would ever ask, that noone would ever know? I should have guessed Jules is FAR more observant than that though! First time we got into a battle and he... knew right away. And he asked me soemthing, did I perfer one side over another? Its a far harder question than he could have known. As a kid... I really was happy and hyper, and bubby. But the otehr kids at the orphanage would take advantage of that, beat me down, bully me, and so... I developed my other side for when I was around them. When I was alone, when I was fighting monsters, it was my hyper side that was always dominant. Then when I came here... it was different. They didnt know me I realized. So I could be that hyper side... and the roles somehow reversed.

I couldnt pick just one side I realized... both sides Id come to know and see as a part of myself. Then Jules said soemthing unepected... taht perhaps a meeting in the middle could happen? I know I can do that... but it'll take some time and work and who knows what the final result would be? But... I want to try. I want to resolve this before one side really does win out over the other and I end up loosing a part of myself.

So time to step up, time to look into myself. This journal may become even more introverted over the next few days it seems. But, I really dont wish to loose either side of me...

Look at me, standing here sounding like some schoolgirl idiot! *Shakes head* Anyways, its time for me to be off for bed. I... I still have much to do and much to think about I suppose. Until next time journal.

----Jia
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Is blood thicker than water? [Feb. 14th, 2005|09:08 pm]
Jiang Chi
Im not afraid of water, not really you know? I can stand at the beach all day, in fact I find it really relaxing! Its just when Im SURROUNDED by it, on all sides, that I start to panic. Even in a swimming pool, as a kid, I used to squeal and scream like I was being killed. Poor lifeguards didnt know WHAT to do with me!

I know why too, the people at the orphanage told me right before I left for shinra because theyd already told shinra all about me. Things I hadnt even known. That was when I found out why people stare at me so oddly... and sometimes with more sadness then they would at the other orphans. Turned out I was half wutain. My father met a tourist and fell in love. Shortly after they wanted to show me off to my mother's side of the family... when their ship was in a wreck. My father died instantly, but my mother survived long enough to leave me here with just a name.

Im thinking its because of that wreck that Ive had, and probably always will have this annoying fear of water. I just hope it doesnt affect my abilities as a Turk, although Im certain they were told about it too. The other day, in the fight against that serpent thing with Jules, I nearly choked after a water attack. Had it not washed away... well I fear for what could have happened. Stupid irrational fear...

You know its funny as well. Everyone can tell just be looking at me Im part wutain. Had I not the pink eyes, then I could pass for one. And yet... I know almost nothing about wutai except for what Ive heard or shinra has taught. I dont know about its foods, cultures, Ive never even wielded a blade before. I use a gun... soemthing Im certain no wutain would be caught dead with. I know nothing about them, so I really have no right to claim them. And I dont really, anyone who asks me I tell them Im a Midgar resident. They never believe me though. *Shakes head*

I dont think Id ever claim that wutai half of me... I wodner if this would upset my father wherever he is now. Though I have the feeling one day that will come to bite me in the rear and Illhave no choice but to face up to my heritage. For now all I can do is live my life, and pray my blood doesnt come searching for me. ...What if one day, Im assigned there?

Well enough of this, I must be off to practice with my gun again. I dont have... time to think like this. Its not right.

---Jia
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Just Doing my Job... [Feb. 14th, 2005|12:41 am]
Jiang Chi
Shinra knows what I can do well, and one of those things happen to be sniping. So you know who gets sent on assignment right? Yep, that would be me. Anyways, and so I set out of Midgar and find myself wanting to visit that church. You know, the abdoned one in the... not so nice parts of town. It was perfect, not even that every so constantly there flowergirl was present. I went to the altar... and thought. Im not about to see my deepest thoughts and prayers out loud, and Im certain whatever god or angel, or demon watched over me they understand.

Of course, things were not to be so quiet. I hear footsteps, and of course instincts come to mind. I reach for the gun, but find the person behind it is a young man who wants to become a turk. He peaked my interest of course with this, being so adamant about it even as he was asked about other careers. So, I decided to test him. I wasnt so hard on him as normal, and I didnt use Ifrit, but still, he proved he had the moves.

So anyways, after the business with Stratum was over, I finally headed to Junon to finish out my assigment. Real easy work, just a simple hitjob. The guy was a real creature of habit too, so it made it all the more easier. Afterwards, I saw Julian again. It was awesome seeing him there, it made my whole day really!

We talked, fought, and ate together as usual, but Ill be honest. I have a lot to think about now... I suppose Ill gather my thoughts in a journal entry or soemthing. Thoughts on water, thoughts on old friends... and thoughts on masks. But for now, I must call it a night unless a certain pain in the you know what PHS goes off. Night!

----Jia
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OOC: Profile [Feb. 14th, 2005|12:38 am]
Jiang Chi
Its listed in her bio as well, but here's her profile. Last OOC entry I make before I start delving into Jian's confuzzled mind :) Also please note this isnt set in stone and is subject to editing as the rp progresses!

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